The bodies of all the snow children fall from silver clouds I think of epitaphs as they wet the ground Descending to drain the planet of its infernal, burning blood Light defines the life and lack thereof I feel indebted to all the passions I think I have Feel like I’m letting down everything I love The voices of my desires speak only through a séance Autumn calls me but can’t hear my response So why am I confining myself to limits I never accepted to be mine? I won’t live anymore Until absence of color coats the floor I can’t live anymore Without wind, without soar I dream of demons and devils that one day I’d like to meet I don’t believe in them, but it’s such a pretty thing to think I’m constantly overcome with how underwhelming it all is Trapped inside a swarm of sapiens I obsess over the few things That still bring me wonder and hope And slowly everything Else vanishes from the globe Is there time to atone? We all left ourselves alone in the same world Where I won’t live anymore I can’t fucking live here anymore

Death supplies us with all the starlight We admire the open graves Of glowing carcasses that soothe our eyes with lullabies that can only be heard beneath the waves Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh I’ve wept for every creature. I weep because they know not of the love I’d give Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh I stand to reach the reaper Embracing grim procedures Count my soul amongst the harvest Death will deem me worthy I feel every living thing I am shown no mercy I feel every living thing Ask it all of me With smiles redder than the baths of Bathory But who am I to test her cosmic mastery She said, “Our existence is the greatest blasphemy” So I seek: Veins rooted in soil Oh tree of blood I’m begging for your memories Where can I go To be reunited with the extinct Love is eternal worry I feel every living thing Conjure ibex to gore me And lead me to all nonliving things Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh Everything you do matters They’ll fucking do all they can to make you forget Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh To all future cadavers Abandon your acclimations to an arid, apathetic mass One day I’ll blanket you inside my galaxy And you’ll be at peace We will glow for every living thing

Sleepy fingers sign the stones that line my home Moon sends messages so that I’ll never be alone We stole water droplets from the morning haze To convince the sun to darken my remaining days And all the serpents gently kissed my cheeks All the ocean mourned to find their queen I laid down all flesh and blood to feed the hungry earth Plunging breaker, flames of my rebirth All humanity will kneel and pray to me for death And I will prey on their despairing breath She said she’d return when the wyrms learn to fly But the giant holding them had withered dry and died And I laid water lilies on land where he sank To evoke emotion from the sky I knew was blank And all the mammals sweetly sang for me And I would give my all to give them peace Resurrect the Winter season When the winter dies The land will fill with maggots and the air will fill with flies When the fauns arrive Let them consume my sacrifice It’s not forever, your endeavor hiding in this form We’ll die to get her, Die together Sleeping in the storm

Alone Painting the mouths on wooden men to speak And all my eyes can feel are salty whispers of the sea Slow death Our devil’s human gardens full of thought Hearts reserved for selfish use Of creatures I am not Talk only through the shade The sun’s betrayed me Left me in this state To question what’s alive The faces and the voices we’ve described Aching The massacre I held behind my teeth For empathy for those who claim to be my enemies All’s lost My hope is gone, my worst fears realized To live for an eternity in light’s tormenting eye

Belly deep in gold Surrounded by your thrones of human bones And a mist that feeds the toads Dipped in permafrost, The teeth that make their home in roads we crossed You’ve created the unknown Alchemist Save all my antagonists And drown me in the amethyst Sorceress Cradle me in your caress As the night flora fluoresce Save all my antagonists and nullify the agonists Cradle me in your caress allow my spirit to progress Fleshy wings spread with finesse Frost blows as you acquiesce Fire birthed inside your chest Lands that you’ll ingest Speak in the voice that left so many voiceless Incinerated by the contents of your breath Don’t stop until there’s nothing left Burn through the cities that have replaced all the trees Feast on the festering face of the disease Dive into the aerial seas Sky King! Slaying! Groundlings! If I could only wield the blade I’d seal every one of their fates Alchemist for me Sorceress for me

The swamp’s alive It breathes inside Pick the pellets from the elder’s throat And make new beings from the bones The omen signs The closing eyes Air and oxygen will let you drown As the ritual resounds I’m obsessed With their eyes Night personified I’m possessed By their sky All life fossilized To the space-bound The sky is ground Fingers helplessly claw from the hole Forming sockets in the skull In absence I submit To the parliament (Submit to the parliament) I have become something That does not exist (Something that does not exist)

Hushed breath Her voice is the wind And rose petals, cemetery skin Exhaling excerpts of the life you lived And the taste of innocence And if you close your eyes The world can disappear The things you fantasized Materialize so clear Air still from lack of angels All of earth’s regrets Hold onto the antithesis It’s the only thing that shelters us from existence It’s my one recurring nightmare It’s the blank skin on the knife It’s the lack of purity present in life I crawled through the sky Dressed in constellations that blessed my body with their disguise And I dreamt in waves With my features accepted amongst the darkness that we’ve made And I breathed the air With a hunger beyond my control A thought beyond compare And I swam to fly Sky’s bleeding oceans and the ocean’s bleeding sky I stayed up that night To cherish the loss of light I had finally found a home To share my contempt For every silhouette That inevitably goes Midnight we arranged Spoke of desires to stain The world in monochrome Abandoning stars For all I’ve wanted thus far To give in to my shadow

Cut the cords attached to jawbones in my head Trudge through other vacuous nights In search of words I’ve never said And in my skin chrysalis Plot my metamorphosis Into something capable of escaping this Dropping letters from the moon On my tongue, the fragments of the shattered night Brandish your wood crucifix For my mind shelters the witch and I can feel her breathing through the forest The world mutates All for you Completed by my flaws again Rejected creations crawl into view Wavelengths of razorblades sever my thoughts of you All six legs perforate the planet All meaning restored Unleashing colors I’ve absorbed Shadows covering all the earth Are nothing yet I fantasized the ending of all things To shed the emptiness Heart’s myopic microscopic dream I separate shape from hue The form and the lucidity Rejected creations crawl into view Wavelengths of razorblades sever my thoughts of you I taste the bodies at my feet The sweetness saves And I’ve got my hope stuck in my One forgiving grave If that’s not real enough To make you want to stay I keep my soul tucked safely away At night I lay in my head And I think about species The uncommon disappointment I’m not one of them at all So what’s the point of breathing in When all this oxygen is poisonous, Tainted by humans? I’m not breathing anymore Wings unfurled, all bodies crushed with no remorse Now what was one is everything Infinitely living in the oceans only some could see Shadows cover all the earth and nothing’s left I fantasized the ending of all things To shed the emptiness Heart’s myopic microscopic dream

In the depths of all I see There’s a coffin shaped like me Decorated in the skins of things I’ll never be Emotions strapped to memories Evoking guilt for things I’ve never even done And shame for my excess humanity I’ve paid the price of clarity Live amidst the absence of sincerity Life’s my lesson in lessening Plagued with constant questioning Unnamed sea creatures Are all that I see Spirits of summer are asleep Silently whisper winter secrets to the species underneath And in the ruins of the earth Summon the faces in the dirt To sanctify your old beliefs (in me) Calling all detritivores Watch as nature takes its main course Watch as I become The empress to a kingdom of failures In sand I wrote down every sentence that could punish me Constantly disappointed when words could not describe the feeling There’s no place for me I wear my heart upon my record sleeve There are no souls in us They’re waiting for the amphibious queen My whole being screams maritime When every heart is cast aside When the hope in me has died And my worst fear’s realized And everything is dead